So yeah...I guess I have a lot on mind. I want to sell our town-home and have a house with a yard for bean and a future. I want to feel like what I'm doing on a daily basis is worthwhile. I want to be in a gallery. I really want a cupcake. (just a little one) I want to paint without feeling rushed. I want to finish my novel. (remember that?) I want...
to feel warm sand on my feet
and jump in the ocean
and I really want fresh peaches...
and to grow a garden
library quiet like it used to be
days that feel like miracles
family that feels like peace
dusk when I'm driving home. I'm tired of sunlight blinding me.
And that's all I want.
I already have everything I need.
I finished two things that have been on the incomplete pile for a bit...I think they turned out super pretty. It's appropriate too because the first is for my aunt. I hope she loves it!
The first and second painting were attempts at working with acrylic paint on top of acrylic ink. This feels so soft and beautiful but a little mysterious too :-)
Another project I have is a special request from a dear friend. I hope to finish that this week so she can enjoy it very soon!
This evening was not too amazing...I realized I measured incorrectly on the big painting last night so tonight was kind of a do-over. See below:
and...finished! (again) Ugh, seriously I was like WTF?! I had a different number in my head than it was supposed to be in reality. After I sat there and pouted for a while I just did it over, leaving even more room on the sides for stretching later. Oh well, this is something I tend to do...mess up. Lesson learned (again) I really wanted to start this thing but at least I was able to complete some more way past due unfinished work that was lying around waiting for some love and attention. Oh, and I got to scrape my palette! That probably sounds like a horrible task but I have always loved it. You spray a little water on super dried acrylic paint and it comes off like magic. The paint looked kinda interesting so I took a couple of pictures.
Big painting: I will see you in the morning.
but at least I got some things accomplished today after a long day of work-work. Jeff and I cleared out my art area to create a more functional space and I finally unrolled my brand new 25 yards of canvas that is almost as tall as Jeffrey.
oh...so this is what a 5x7 foot painting looks like...I have to say I usually don't enjoy the prep part of painting but I had a blast rolling the gesso on while sitting on the canvas in my underwear...
looks like I will get my paint on this weekend for sure :-)
I haven't had a chance to work on anything new which is definitely a bummer because I totally feel like painting and creating right now... I'll have some new work to show soon but in the meantime here are some old works that were all experimental pieces, playing around with different techniques, textures and materials. Enjoy the randomness!
Clenched Soul
We have lost even this twilight.
No one saw us this evening hand in hand
while the blue night dropped on the world.
I have seen from my window
the fiesta of sunset in the distant mountain tops.
Sometimes a piece of sun
burned like a coin in my hand.
I remembered you with my soul clenched
in that sadness of mine that you know.
Where were you then?
Who else was there?
Saying what?
Why will the whole of love come on me suddenly
when I am sad and feel you are far away?
The book fell that always closed at twilight
and my blue sweater rolled like a hurt dog at my feet.
Always, always you recede through the evenings
toward the twilight erasing statues.
-Pablo Neruda
And now...for mine:
Wall Flower
We danced in solemn grace
Far apart as good boys and girls are
Nothing touching
Everything wanting to
A piece of you was stuck in my coat
A stray hair, an eyelash.
You pulled me out of shadows
With a nod and brush of fingertips we became
a tidy space, comfort for a moment.
After a light sweep of my neck you lingered on my shoulder
I watched pools of lights from the car receding
Dazed behind my locked front door.
I slept softly
Thoughts of warms hands on hip and back
Kept me awake at first
Biting at my sheet to keep from smiling loudly, wildly in the dark.
-Allison Day
